i met up with rosie and huifang yesterday night for a short while.
thanks to huifang for walking all the way with me to arab street.
we found the fishing tackle shop tucked away in the middle of nowhere.
HAHA.

i'm still having a terrible headache.
i seriously felt like fainting in the train.
i'm not kidding.
i couldn't bring myself to take another day of MC.
come to think of it, i haven't been so sick in my life.
thanks to all who have been so concerned.
my mummy messaged me this morning when i was on my way to work.
she said;
"i see you getting very skinny. do you take your lunch? please eat more."
everyone has been telling me to eat more. I DO.
the more i eat, the more i lose weight.
no logic right? that's what i think so toooo.
but, it's happening.
maybe my colleague's right.
i'm feeding the worms in my stomach.
anyway, it's baby's dad's birthday today.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY UNCLE!
me and baby bought him a fishing rod and reel.
he's retired so he goes to the jetty to fish now and then.
enjoying life right now.
how nice.

baby sprained his ankle.
:(
i feel so helpless.
because i couldn't be there with him.
lots of thoughts passed through my mind when he told me about his leg.
one of them, running past the heavily armed guards stationed at the entrance of his camp, all the way to his bunk.
what would happen to me is i would most prolly be dead or crippled 1 metre into the camp.
or i may get thrown in jail for trespassing.
i reminded myself that i'm 18 already and will not be tried as a minor if i commit any crime.
i know these thoughts are crazy but when you are deeply in love, anything's possible.
i assured baby i would take good care of him when he books out on friday.
i will be his hands and legs.
feeding him, massaging him, doing anything that would make him feel better.
i love you darling.

seeing you suffering is like being shot a million times through my heart.